Baby Soukewell

and forget to update this thing.

so i’m 34 weeks! I just want to die, i’m so swollen and puffy all over ): and these hemorrhoids could kill -_- but other than that everything is fine Ezra is kickin up storms and rollin all over the place.

Lamaze classes are going well and we’re touring the hospital next week for our final class. I got the room more organized and moved around for ezzie. I still have a lot to do in there.

We’re going to visit Auntie Alison on sunday which is exciting. This is the last time I’ll see her pregnant! We’re going to go to Farmer’s Day which is this stupid little fair thing we do in Richlands but i’m super excited about it now that i’m not in high school lol.

The mass is still in his stomach but the Dr’s aren’t worried about it so i guess I’m not either. So i have one more ultrasound so they can check on it one more time. i’m sure it’ll go well.

I got maternity pics done!! Lori is the best she had already asked if she could use Ezra to practice doing newborn pics so she’s doing those, YAY! Then she asked if she could do maternity pics and at first i was like “no it’s ok” then i thought about it like if i get mat pics done for the next one ezra will wonder why i didn’t do them for him and it’ll be good to just have and it’s my first baby so i said yes and they turned out AMAZING and once i get them i’ll put some up :3 they are so cool you guys. seriously.

AND i will probs have a doula lol. This girl from my church is going to school to be a doula and she needs to practice and i said to myself how on earth will i be a proper crunchy granola mom if i don’t have one (lol joke) but i’m pretty excited and whatever i can do to help a sister out is cool with me (after all that’s how i got free maternity/newborn pics set up why NOT use a free doula?)

I’m realizing just how lucky i am to have such amazing supportive wonderful people in my life. I have tons of other youngish moms who have been in my situation and understand what i’m going through and that helps a lot. it’s nice to know that things will turn out ok and bryan will get the hang of it when he comes home and i’m not a bad person lol. Everything is going to be different and awesome and ok.

And I actually believe it (:

29 weeks bitches!

baaawwwwww!!!

went pretty well, Ezra participated a lot better this time.

They noticed something weird about his stomach though, they think it might be nothing, but it could be something so they want me back in three weeks just to see if it is still there, getting bigger/smaller/moving whatever. It could very well just be a weird fold of the stomach so they’re telling me not to worry and I’m doing my very best! The thing to remember is that it’s curious not serious.

He is in the 87 percentile though for weight. he is one fat little sea monkey (: but it’s ok so were his mommy and daddy. At least everything else is lookin good!

And he is sure lookin good! He’s gonna look so much like us, I can’t wait to see just how much in October!!! <3 <3 <3

I’m now 28 weeks pregnant!!!

i may have the baby sugars WHOOOOMP. i go in for my 3 hr GTT on wednesday to find out. 

It is officially a boy! his name will be Ezra Allen Jewell (: i am so excited

he’s moving all the time and his favorite side of the ‘bed’ is the right. and he crawls up my ribcage a lot and sits underneath it.

trust me when i say that this middle isn’t big enough for the both of us!!

i am finding new stretch marks everyday and that sucks ): but it’s ok cause none of them are on my tummy (yet, knock on wood)

that’s about it. not much else to tell. everything else is going routinely. little ezzie is measuring up fine and i’m sure he’ll be big and strong when it’s time to come out.

SQUEEEE!!! cant’ wait til he’s big enough to fit it (and to tie-dye it) :3

thanks alison! i love you and can’t wait to see you!!

i feel so bad, cause my pregnancy is almost over. i feel like i wished it all away wishing i was bigger and also by not even knowing i was pregnant, i missed most of an entire trimester. it’s so depressing, i feel like i haven’t appreciated the time i had with my little sea monkey. even though i have a ways to go and plenty of time to cherish the little monker. but i can’t help it. i already feel like a bad mom lol. but i love him so much already and i know i’m going to do the best i can and i can’t blame myself for missing out.

i am also so so bummed that bryan is missing so much, i know he hates it and he’s really jealous of everyone here because they get to be with me all the time and get to see the birth and he’s missing the first four months of life and other stuff. he is really pushing having these babies back to back. i don’t think he’ll want that once he gets here. but i may end up being soft heart-ed (and dumb) enough to think it’s a good idea. 

but then again maybe not because as soon as possible after we get married i’m getting that implanon straight in my arm and we’re not having another baby for three years!! lol. hopefully that all works out. i just miss him so much and wish he was here and i wish we’d just gotten married before he left even though his mom would have killed us. i love that big dumb lummox and i just wish he could be here for all of this uuugghhhh angst!

so tomorrow is my first ob/gyn appt and i’m pumped cause matt gets to go! they may even do an ultrasound which would be cool! this would be his only chance to see the baby in utero cause he works all my other appts. so we’re lucky he had tomorrow off at random.

bryan called me and we talked for 20 mins! we’d been out of touch for about a week so it was really nice. hopefully he can call me again soon or the emails start working again. i got pretty weepy but it’s ok, he kinda did too. he’s really upset that he’s missing everything, and i’m sad about it too. and we’re kicking ourselves for not getting married before he left..

i get my glasses in .. 4-6 weeks! WHOMP! i was pissed, i should have just scheduled that appt sooner so i’d have them by now but i procrastinate, but at least i’m getting them at all. i also ended up getting some guy frames because all the lady glasses like when i looked through them i could see the frames in my line of vision. which was obnoxious. we’ll see how this goes. lol.

lookin cuuuute in my twilight shirt for my eye appt today (8

and yeah that’s the christmas tree still up lol!

bryan hasn’t gotten any of emails in like the last three days, which suuuuucks. and the baby wasn’t really moving around for a couple days, maybe i was just really distracted and couldn’t feel it but either way it freaked me out. i need to sign up for those parenting, lamaze, and breast feeding seminars at the health dept before they all fill up! i had totally forgotten about them until nicole said something about it lol. also i eat all the time. like more than i have been before. but it’s ok i’m not eating crap (usually)

i have an eye appt tomorrow and medicaid will cover my glasses but i’m pretty sure they’re going to be really ugly glasses that i’m going to have to suck it up and wear. whoooomp. but once bryan and i get married i’ll probs just go to contacts cause i’m not used to glasses and i can get used to contacts. anyway. i hope bryan calls me again soon. cause i miss his big lummox-y ass.